Maybe it feels a little overwhelming now. Maybe it's just everything piling up, maybe I just need to wait a little longer to figure myself out. I'm good at that right? I'm good at being independent, I'm good at handling things on my own, I am, right?

I don't need to be this scared. Stop shaking so much. It's pathetic to have trembling fingers. I don't need to bury my head in hands so often. Things aren't bad, remember? I'm just making it bad for myself. It's just me. Maybe it's just a phase. Maybe I just need to wait a little longer to let it ride out.

Don't feel like this. I don't need to surrender myself to feeling this numb, with just getting by day to day. I don't need to pretend so much. I should actually be feeling the things I feign. I used to be the person I was right? I was once the person I'm trying so hard to be now. I just need to wait. I just need to wait, right?

I'll be fine. I think all this will pay off. I'll know how to be myself without weighing everything too much.

It's been a long wait, so I'll be fine waiting a little longer. I'm doing this for myself, nobody but myself.