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Taking the time to observe people teaches you things that nothing else can. Human nature gives you answers when its not being forced to, just like how people tend to like giving answers when you don't need them. There are certain things that you can only learn about life when you watch how different people go about living theirs.
The world that we live in is nothing but a series of questions. Whys and hows laced onto a fine thread that makes its way around every beating heart on the face of the planet. A fine thread that binds people together - easy to miss, easy to snap, but handled with so much care. Evolution driven by questions. Actions driven by questions. Change driven by questions. We're born into it, born into this tangled network of thin fibres bearing nothing but questions. We're all holding onto this fine little thread, desperately twirling it onto our finger so that we won't let go.
As the years passed, I found that my grip on this thread had loosened. It was starting to wear out, too many people were holding onto it too hard - I was holding onto it just as hard as well. We've been propelled into a world that just seems to be getting darker. We all notice it someway or another. It doesn't matter how privileged you are in your life, I feel that everyone reaches a point where you feel a breach into the ideals that you've built up for yourself.
This breach seems to trigger the start of a race. The shot of the starter pistol that indicates that the marathon has begun. We all start racing against each other. We volunteer ourselves into this game where the goal is to not let ourselves stop for even a second.
The world seems to be getting more fast paced. It feels like a constant battle with time. Everyone is desperately trying to rush into things - whether its success, joy or love. We don't give things time anymore because everybody seems to be under the illusion that time is running out. But why? The thread looks like its snapping. People are starting to find a way to get unattached from it. People are looking for answers on their own, they don't want to hang onto something with everyone else. They want to find answers fast and want these answers for themselves. Human nature seems to give selfishness a whole lot of airtime on its show.
I watch as people go about around me looking like they're searching for something that they can't have. I watch as people go about around me looking for missing pieces in themselves hoping to find them in other people. I watch as people drown in realisation that good things come to those who wait, when they clearly don't believe in the idea of waiting. I watch as people drown in a feigned little dollhouse world that they believe comes with late nights, one too many drinks and large groups of people. I watch as people choose not to care about whats going on around them. I watch as people choose to care too much.
I watch and I imitate all these people. I do what they do, because they always seem to look so sure. And yet I come out of these trials feeling more unsure than ever.
What I've learnt from all that imitation is that there is nothing scarier than not giving things time. Nothing more dangerous than running around desperately for a silver lining. And nothing more cruel than making someone else responsible for the way that you feel.
I realise that we're all just lost. We're all just looking for alternative routes to the same path, and we're putting ourselves on a self-built pedestal for choosing a path that is only right because we want to believe that it is. The more I observe the more certain I am that nobody knows what they're doing anymore. We're all just trying to rush into finding a new thread, a new knot that could hold us together so that we don't have to be knocked over so much.
I wonder what would be our wake up call? What would make us realise all the wrong things that we've done, and help us locate the way to what should really be right?
The world that we live in seems like nothing but a series of questions to me. But I feel like we're all caught up in looking for answers when we're not even sure what the questions are.
